something new.

it's a bit campy - but it works for the "right now."

working with a daily (read: semi-daily) inventory. i know asheley, i know.

it's a messy process. so messy in fact that it's not even addressed until Step 10 in the 12 Steps of Recovery.

still, i know i need to do this. i need, at this time in the "right now," to take time and give myself and my beloved an assessment of where i am. so i've started here.

for the next "while" - whatever while really means i'm going to answer the following questions, with trust in God and a hope of honesty placed within this "self" that through this daily inventory i may be lead to understand a little bit more where this "self" is going through all this messiness.

• what is frustrating me now?
• what am i angry about?
• what am i scared of?
• what am i dreading?
• what am i anxious about?
• what concerns me?
• what is the smallest thing that i feel dumb about even writing down but it is actually stressing me out?
• what am i looking forward to?
• today?
• tomorrow?
• this year?

so we'll see what happens.

only God knows - maybe. this whole free will thing just may be getting in the way of His ability to know my future.

maybe.