Monday, November 05, 2007

something new.

it's a bit campy - but it works for the "right now."

working with a daily (read: semi-daily) inventory. i know asheley, i know.

it's a messy process. so messy in fact that it's not even addressed until Step 10 in the 12 Steps of Recovery.

still, i know i need to do this. i need, at this time in the "right now," to take time and give myself and my beloved an assessment of where i am. so i've started here.

for the next "while" - whatever while
really means i'm going to answer the following questions, with trust in God and a hope of honesty placed within this "self" that through this daily inventory i may be lead to understand a little bit more where this "self" is going through all this messiness.

  • what is frustrating me now?
  • what am i angry about?
  • what am i scared of?
  • what am i dreading?
  • what am i anxious about?
  • what concerns me?
  • what is the smallest thing that i feel dumb about even writing down but it is actually stressing me out?
  • what am i looking forward to?
    • today?
    • tomorrow?
    • this year?
so we'll see what happens.

only God knows - maybe. this whole free will thing just may be getting in the way of His ability to know my future.

maybe.

2 comments:

Robin said...

Good questions...Praying for you Jessica, my friend!

Indian Lake Papa said...

Thanks Jessica - I too need to do introspection. Many issues to deal with right now.

Last night was a start! I went to a travelogue on "Travel across western Canada". How awesome! The narrator stated we can "put out our hand and touch the face of God". I have, and did just now again, lift my hand, and wept, I just touched the face of God!! He is that close you know.

Indian Lake Papa